Yesterday was hard, really hard actually, but I cannot tell you the peace that has washed over me this morning. It is amazing the difference a morning can make. I cannot say thank you enough to those of you who prayed for us yesterday, I felt everyone. As Melody so sweetly said to me, “the gates of heaven were stormed in prayer on my behalf,” that was such an amazingly humbling and powerful thing to experience. So thank you, thank you, thank you.
For the first time since Wednesday night I experienced such a deep nights sleep. I have so desperatley needed that. That was probably in part playing a large role in my emotional exhaustion. And this morning I was SO renewed, my energy, my spirit, my hope, my joy, and I know that this is something ONLY the Lord can do. And this verse came to mind immediately as I awoke:
“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, ‘The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him’.”
Lamentations 3:22-24
And then I remembered the verse about how the Lord singing over us, and although I did not hear an audible voice singing over me, I felt His peace and mercies washing over me, washing pain and sadness away. And then I got to work and found the verse…
“The Lord your God is with you, He is mighty to save, He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His live, HE WILL REJOICE OVER YOU WITH SINGING.”
-Zephaniah 3:17
I will be clinging to those verses today because they are true. There is such a comfort and peace in just knowing that the Lord has a special verse just for you. So I don’t know where you are in life, I certainly know that I am not the first woman to go through this struggle, and will definitely not be the last. And there are others who are in such unimaginable pain today – much worse than mine, and I will pray those verses over them and over you. For we serve a mighty God, who loves us, and loves to see His glory displayed through us. And I pray at the end of this struggle that is exactly what will happen, that the Lord will be glorified through Adam and I.
I know that this particular journey is not done. There will still be hard days and moments, but I will cling to these verses, I will choose hope and joy and peace because that is the Lord’s best for me and for you!
This comment is long overdue, but I wanted you to know that I did read your previous post and I’m praying for you and Adam. Love you so much!
Where did you go? I know I’m the world’s least consistent blogger, but I’m gonna ping you anyway. I miss hearing what is going on with the Ashworths!! How is life? Work busy? Any fun summer travel plans? An update is long overdue.
Miss ya!